Manhattan at 6 a.m.


I hate that I can’t put how I feel into words, I’ve never been good with expressing my emotions and it has caused me into so many regrets in my life and everytime that happens I tell myself next time will be different but it never is and I keep going round and round in circles.

Today I have done nothing but think about you and what our future could be like yet something in my heart is holding me back and I know this is where I need to get out of the vicious circle that I’m in and tame a leap of faith but from past experiences and getting hurt I’m holding back and I know people say you shouldn’t judge someone on your past experiences with other people but it’s hard when your been hurt.

I’m feeling so many emotions right now that I can’t even describe or feel like I can talk to people about because that’s stupid as I know I have people who could help but I’m useless with expressing myself, I like go to talk and my mouth just closes up, so instead I sit and think about it over and over again till I go crazy and then end up exploding and writing posts like this so I’m half had a rant making more thinking space.

I have so many feelings and questions that I need to figure out and find the answers too but I don’t even know where to start, I just need a sign. I wish I knew what to do, I reckon we could be really happy together, I just need to work this all out first.



i want a late night adventure. i want someone to call me up and say, “i’m outside. let’s go do something!” i want to go out late at night in my pj’s and my hair all tied up. maybe drive around. go to a park and just swing on the swings. maybe sit in the grass and watch the stars or maybe go to a 24 hour food place and pig out. i just want a late night adventure with people i like to be around. no drama. nothing but good vibes and good company.

(via erasing-time)


Katie Cotugna, How to Love

im speechless

i need this.